Sometimes it's not enough, I don't feel good.
It's like a stab in a heart that isn't mine.
I wonder, and wonder, and wonder...
but things don't look any clearer.
Wether I choose this or that, won't change the course of things.
Faraway land has always done it for me...only for a while.
Things always get back on track, and I lose it again.
I wonder if being a stone would make things easier, people nicer and myself healthier.
Yeah, being an object. No harm, no goodness, no up or down...just stillness.
Maybe a wheel in a mill (excuse me if it rhymes... I don't like that).
something that moves always in the same way and for the same reason, without drastic changes or any at all.
Something mechanic, clearly, utterly boring.
that's what I wanna be.
I don't wanna be affected in anyway by anything.
MOTIONLESS. LIFELESS.
Geee, it sounds like I wanna commit suicide, but it's not that. I'm not that intense.
Just wanna exist in a different way/space, where I can't BE in the human sense of being.
It's a shame that I'm a Steppenwolf.
